We kill the things we love
we destroy the light we seek
we demolish hope with fear
we determine desire is dead

For loving means naked fear
means daring something new
means holding our hearts open
means staring at a glaring mirror

It scares us to our bones
to feel so raw and real
to risk the vulnerable us
to see the flaws we possess

To be loved regardless
of imperfections we have
in spite of baggage carried
in hope of future bliss

So it’s easier to run and hide
to bury feelings deep inside
to sabotage our potential selves
to repeat old patterns, rehashed

Than shoot for something new
to change the path ahead
to leap before we look
to seek the uncertain instead

We create excuses to please
our inner unworthiness
we look for escape routes
the nearest exit out

Rarely do we sit with love
and let it sink in slow
no panic, just hold it
observe it, and glow

For killing what we love
we feel safe
we feel secure
we feel familiar
within our holes
where we live

But we are anything

but alive


~ Emily Clapper*


*myself included, sometimes.


23 thoughts on “Kill

    1. Indeed! 😊 And thank you for the compliment, appreciate it. Yes, doubly gloomy for me at home day 6 with a bad flu. Supposed to go to a friend’s wedding in 3 hours…wish me luck, I feel like death warmed over. 😷

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  1. This is scarily accurate of me Emily. I guess many people. You are very wise in this. Change is difficult and being hurt before makes it all the harder to let show your true self “bare” and let someone love you. You are right, it is easier to kill what we love, to stay in our cocoon.

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    1. Yes, it is easier…first step though is mindfulness. Next step, change. πŸ˜‰ And lord knows, I’ve been hurt my fair share! I’m surprised I haven’t given up yet. ❀

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