We kill the things we love
we destroy the light we seek
we demolish hope with fear
we determine desire is dead
For loving means naked fear
means daring something new
means holding our hearts open
means staring at a glaring mirror
It scares us to our bones
to feel so raw and real
to risk the vulnerable us
to see the flaws we possess
To be loved regardless
of imperfections we have
in spite of baggage carried
in hope of future bliss
So itβs easier to run and hide
to bury feelings deep inside
to sabotage our potential selves
to repeat old patterns, rehashed
Than shoot for something new
to change the path ahead
to leap before we look
to seek the uncertain instead
We create excuses to please
our inner unworthiness
we look for escape routes
the nearest exit out
Rarely do we sit with love
and let it sink in slow
no panic, just hold it
observe it, and glow
For killing what we love
we feel safe
we feel secure
we feel familiar
within our holes
where we live
But we are anything
but alive
~ Emily Clapper*
5.27.16
*myself included, sometimes.
Beautiful poem, Em ! Sadly so much truth to this, we all are guilty of killing the things we love sometime or the other.
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Yes, indeed, a shared human trait. Thanks, A! ππΌ
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Lovely!
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Thanks, Kunal ππ
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Beautifully done
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Thanks, Joseph (it is Joseph, right?)! Appreciate your thoughts. ππΌπ
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Yes it is Joseph and you’re welcome π
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Really well said and so true. It is like you were listening in on the conversation me and my gf were having over coffee yesterday lol.
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Ha, thanks! That’s awesome, Alisa. Maybe I was…maybe I was… Hehe. But, seriously, love synchronicity like that. ππ
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She was giving me shit for not dating and my reasons for it lol. Long time friends, call a spade a spadeπ
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beautiful piece but sadly everything you said with your beautiful choice of words is true.
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Thanks, M! Appreciate that β€
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Thank you for sharing
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Eloquent Em! As always
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Thanks, N, kind of you π
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Sad but true. Great writing, although I’m trying really hard to not destroy the things I love. Been working out well so far. Have a great gloomy day in Seattle! β
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Indeed! π And thank you for the compliment, appreciate it. Yes, doubly gloomy for me at home day 6 with a bad flu. Supposed to go to a friend’s wedding in 3 hours…wish me luck, I feel like death warmed over. π·
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So sorry to hear that. Perhaps a wedding and a lot,of alcohol could kill that flu quickly? Best of luck. π
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Possibly! I’ll probably watch from outside the window and they can push me food through it with a stick. ππΈ
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This is scarily accurate of me Emily. I guess many people. You are very wise in this. Change is difficult and being hurt before makes it all the harder to let show your true self “bare” and let someone love you. You are right, it is easier to kill what we love, to stay in our cocoon.
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Yes, it is easier…first step though is mindfulness. Next step, change. π And lord knows, I’ve been hurt my fair share! I’m surprised I haven’t given up yet. β€
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Well keep looking. I know there’s good ones out there π They just hide well π
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