Ashen

somewhere in the haze of other days
away from where what once was us
before we knew the other one
before the time was yet to come
where love was something far from now
a thing we thought we’d never reach
a figment of our heightened dreams
we never thought we’d ever meet
until we reached into the dark
until we closed eyes and grabbed
for something in the haze we felt
heat emanating mine to yours
yours to mine electric shock
lit by unmeasurable fire
we combusted to crumbled dust
now to build burned hearts again
on embers of these hazeless days
lost without a match
cold to the touch
dying slowly
ashen
gray

~Emily C. 10.1.18

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Night Falls

when night falls
and you close your eyes
as the cat sleeps
and thin windows creak
my mind unwinds
a top stopping
its spin decreased
its dreams unleashed
when dark descends
and light succumbs
as walls close in
sighs strum
the strings of time
make music for me
familiar refrains
my lives notes untamed
legs scarred with age
young skin now old
heart still pounds
youthful joy unfolds
when night falls
i lie awake
the world sleeps
this space
i’ll keep

~ Emily C.

9.23.18

How Silent My True Song

i live amongst the stars
and i have lost my way
traveling on dark paths
no longer in the sky

if i close my eyes
their images appear
i can almost touch them
far from me yet near

i live in conjured clouds
floating like the sea
rolling with the wind
forever blowing me

for too long have i sunk
to ground, a leaden rock
burrowing in soil, hiding head
from daylight’s dark

i live where animals roam
their aimless purpose clear:
survival of the fittest ones,
raw death meets beauty’s flair

separated from my flock
parted from my breed
tracks followed only led
to dead end muddy caves

i live where laughter flies
its freely flitting notes
written in music staves
strumming at the heart

how quiet my voice has been
how silent my true song
waiting for the proper key
for listening loves, to whom
i might belong

~ Em ~

2.12.18

Canyon

there in the waves of midnight:

you

undulate,

drunk on dark
just out of reach, you carve
the heavy air,

beckoning me along
with sway of silent hand

deep into
heart’s ocean
— its exposed canyon
lit brilliant,
blooming with bioluminescence

painting the never

with the now

 

~ Emily C.

1.11.18

Atmospheric

a love atmospheric
a loss catastrophic
high ride to sky
fast dive to die
he rose me

he rose me
above all others
on a back strong I flew
below brown earth
rusted heart fell

a love atmospheric
a loss catastrophic
high ride to sky
fast dive to die
he rose me

he rose me
buoyed on sweet words
cut down by bloody swords
downed as injured bird
swoon to free fall

a love atmospheric
a life entropic
built up to stars
steep descent to hell

he rose me

to fell me

~ Emily C.

11.18.17

Dark on Dark

trees bow
in humble prayer
wind muffled
by boiling water
dark on dark
dance past glass
thoughts stir
as night does pass

i stand alone
by kitchen sink
swirl honey
into my drink
you are gone
again from here
alone with night
my heart blurs

another season
turns tonight
beside my scars
i’ll sleep tight
star in dreams
i’d rather live
wake to day
alone again

 

 

~ Emily C. 11.14.17

 

 

Camouflage

she makes herself invisible
so he doesn’t speak,
seek her out like
a missile.

no where to hide
except under
layers and layers
of clothes, hats,
half-hearted
smiles aimed
at no one in particular;

used one too many times
she turns on a dime
now, keeps the door
in her sight 
at all times, just
in case leaving
is her only escape
when she’s feeling
out of excuses,
under-enthused
or sick of being
a target.

why not
eat another pastry,
gain another pound?
another defense
against attention.

oh how many ways
there are to hide
when you’ve been
found by 
the wrong kind…

you learn.

 

~ Emily C.

11.11.17