Singularity

you, my black hole
a vortexed love
spins vicious

I see my fate foretold
in watching stars
sucked to your singularity
every one compounded
upon your dark soul

lesson seen…unheeded
your gravity
too fierce to resist
I can’t escape your grip

the hearts you’ve taken
clearly mistaken
now mine is on the list

one step
too far
one kiss
too many
one single
I love you

is the ticket across
your event horizon

past the point 
of no return

past the point
of saving myself

helpless I witness
my light snuffed out

~ Emily C.

3.12.17

Fingers on the Mirror

Fingers on the mirror trace memories drip by drip

they fall like tears that succumb to the years

the gravity of gravity sinking heart to a puddle

too numb to cry, let the glass do it for me

I spy the scars on my naked frame

the ones you gave me blow by blow, word by word

taken like a champ, suffered like silence — mute

inside boils in fear, but shame is anger’s foil

cracked glass cuts fingertips that point blame

insult to injury when your lies sought facts to tame

make me the scapegoat to your disordered mind

never taking credit — the destruction you made mine,

trickster king creates the insanity then claims sanity,

the world duped, but I know…I will always know,

the sink overflows with my mistaken belief

that your love was remotely real, your act legit

let the truth clear the mirror, I’ll gladly bleed

to remember what I learned, to never again plead

nor beg for the likes of you, go on to fool the next girl

for I am all I need

~ Em C.

3.6.17

Quantum Souls

Spooky action at a distance,
Einstein called it,
a quantum particle
in two places at the same time

Quantum entanglement
he thought impossible
but he was wrong…
they proved him so

Our quantum souls
make the clear case
twin flames firing
in serendipitous sync

Oceans vastly apart
miles of water away
in every possible way
distant we stay

But I am there
this moment in time
moving space
around you so

That when my heart beats
it beats inside yours
when I breathe
your lungs inhale

When I cry
your tears will fall
and if I sob
your chest will heave

If I say I love you
you will mouth it back
to me, instantaneously
we will rhyme in time

Our quantum souls
rippling spirits one in same
proving Einstein wrong

faster than the speed of light

we unite

~ Emily C.

5.9.16

As Love Dies

the roses on the table wilt in slow motion
blackened edges of velvet death
an upright casket vase props ripened scent
morbid display of love’s attempt

hung heads drop resigned to fate
clinging yet still to tender layers
memories long tainted by anger
each a story to tell if given an ear

like a tin photograph daguerreotype
a moment recorded on time’s silver vapor
never as beautiful as when it was taken
entropic decay the only thing certain

as love dies, a rose dies
as a rose dies, a love dies

— there is still water in the vase

but some things can’t be saved

~ Em C.

2.25.17

Just Because

just because it makes you uncomfortable 

just because you don’t understand the answer

just because it challenges your perception

just because it’s not what you were taught

just because it’s an outlook you’ve never seen

just because it makes you ponder this life

just because it does not subscribe to rules

just because you can’t win the argument

just because my life is different than yours

just because judgment is so much easier

doesn’t make it a lie

doesn’t make it wrong

doesn’t make it a sin

doesn’t make you better

doesn’t make me worse

it makes me me

it makes you you

~ EC

2.18.17

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Dedicated to all those in the world who do not live in the mainstream and choose to question doctrines that attempt to classify people in ways humans cannot be classified. Be your own thinker, always resist being fed ideas for the sake of their convenience in labelling and controlling their interpretation of morality and influencing the masses.

What works for me, may not work for you, and vice versa. There is no judgment. There are only your truths derived from personal experience.  Don’t try to change me, I won’t try to change you.

Hole

the hole you left feels warmer
than the love you claimed to feel

its vastness gives me comfort —
since you left, it embraces me still

in your absence I’ve seen the truth:
words brandished blades that killed us,

like a stray animal, I am blind with loyalty,
you shoo me away, eschewing promises

“easier this way, best this way…”
so you say, as you watch me limp away

into the forest, until your silhouette fades,
and darkness grows, protector of a heavy heart

the love of nothingness, its unconditional truth
the promise of nothing: the only kind I trust

the hole you left feels safer
than the love I used to feel

 

~ Em C.

2.16.17

Rang Dead

I wait just inside the cemetery gate
a lifetime short and a day too late
the mist rolls over unshorn green
that crawls in waves, spirits unseen

Your name freshly carved in script
on a tombstone glittering granite
I trace cold rock with my warm lips
wishing to drink you in ethereal sips

But dry as the bones of your body
this crypt is nothing but empty
like my heart that leaked all its heat
with each pulse of your slashed veins

No amount of my love was enough
to stop you from ending yourself
I could not fix your chronic pain
nor save you from your own disdain

If you only believed me, my love
if you only believed in your worth
all too evident in my green eyes
you could not convince me otherwise

As the crows perch with knowing
on the treetops under sky snowing
I sang to you our song in blue notes
that rang dead in the moonless night

~ E

9.23.16