when I forget, stars remind me.
in a blink, I will be gone.
not them. they go on.
why? why anything. they ask.
the wind at night whispers stories
only I can hear. a gentle breeze
breaks mind’s silence.
live, it says.
leaves are my memories
drying with the coming fall,
falling on the cooling ground,
I won’t stop them.
this witness to the skeletal past,
like it should,
certain death of uncertain life.
those stars are always there
hanging in spacetime
uncaring of me, of earth
— the hottest coldest hearts
I envied them once, but
they envy me.
my light can’t go out.
~ Emily C.
Prayers at the shoreline to distant gods,
mantras and chants for mystery maker.
Dark matter ripples gently move her hair.
Evening storm retreats, trailing shocks strike
as parting clouds evaporate like dried tears
she cried once, for life’s loves, lives lost,
while tidal waves yawn on black horizon,
swallowing all with a smacking crash,
closing in upon her beach this night
until in dark consuming light she sees
tides of stars at her bare feet, collecting
along moondust sand with each lick of waves.
In her graceful aging youth, never to be old,
she smiles — the stars gathered in her palms
chime as diamonds might in a gathered dress
that flows along winds of time — which pauses.
One dainty swirl and scattered again, they fly…
in the distance, a shooting star aims for her heart.
~ Emily C.
now my eyes can only see cosmos
when they are closed
visions of eternity design frescos
in spinning stars
behind cloak of sight
comfort in their disarray
I am in control of my night
the only place chaos is calm
to park my mind for a spell
lose myself, willingly
…would it be so bad
if I left this hell?
hell that tries to pass for life
all that is steady evades
mocking my drifting strife
grasping in vain, slipping away
nothing is as it seems
but when eyes
planted shut within a pretty place
are closed so very tight:
I could be still
~ Emily C.
Jupiter drifted behind swaying pines
while Ursa Major’s bear lines
told me stories of my past
I let my mind, my love, drift to you
…somewhere there in deep dark blue
while meteors burned a trillion tears
in the fragile firmament
on this moonless night
— luna stolen when you died,
so all stars
would be brighter
in your absence:
our loss…no shame
in this kind of pain
that speaks of the impact
the black hole crater
your superhuman soul left
in shifting lands of time
~ Emily C.
he stepped on the ladder in a display of unbridled uncertainty
in reach of the divine dangling overhead like a jeweled crown
twinkling truth in morse code (he never did learn)
remaining a mystery that he would never solve
the earthbound fearless lover deathly afraid of heights
who can dream bigger than the sky
but never dares
…there is always some boulder in the path
he won’t climb
some barrier blocking access
he won’t destroy
despite his strength (that he never has used)
wilting chances eroded by time
fruit of opportunity spoiled on the vine
o…here flies her
within grasp but for one step
one more step
how it must feel to see her so close away
so very away
the one that stands out by trying to blend in
because she can’t
when all the other stars shine, she illuminates
a part of him he can’t see
for as the muted masses only glow
from distances he wants to tame
one foot, then two
extend the hand,
~ Emily C.
Some see only black
in the cosmos
I see nothing but stars
in death throes
for all beauty is violent
creation / destruction
yin / yang
birth / death
pulse / flatline
yeses / nos
I bide my time
until the cold sleep
I’ll float deep
and so fucking far,
you’ll think I’m a star
you’ll name me yours,
never mind my feelings.
make a wish
blow a kiss…?
kiss me goodbye then
for my chain is cut
by my own heart
free, watch me fly
just a lone speck
of elusive dark energy
of the universe
~ Em C
you stood there in the pouring rain, cupping your hands as if collecting stardust
stopped in my tracks, I swore I saw shooting stars dancing in your palms
not wanting to disturb you, as the world swirled around in chaos, you, a pillar
of calm serenity, your gaze upward and unfazed, soaking to the bone, smiling,
time stopped — my eyes took a picture and framed you with gilded memory
to be retrieved some future rainy day when the only thing felt is gloom
your inner light captured amidst pelting spheres, tears dropped from the sky
reflecting only the truth of your beauty, magnifying the darkness
in such a way, even it
had to smile