When I Forget

when I forget, stars remind me.
in a blink, I will be gone.
not them. they go on.
why? why anything. they ask.

the wind at night whispers stories
only I can hear. a gentle breeze
breaks mind’s silence.
live, it says.

leaves are my memories
drying with the coming fall,
falling on the cooling ground,
decomposing.

I won’t stop them.
Jaded,
this witness to the skeletal past,
crumbling
like it should,
certain death of uncertain life.

strangely…soothing.
those stars,

those stars are always there

hanging in spacetime
uncaring of me, of earth
— the hottest coldest hearts
they are.

I envied them once, but
they envy me.

my light can’t go out.

 

~ Emily C.

9.1.17

 

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Tide of Stars

Prayers at the shoreline to distant gods,
mantras and chants for mystery maker.
Dark matter ripples gently move her hair.

Evening storm retreats, trailing shocks strike
as parting clouds evaporate like dried tears
she cried once, for life’s loves, lives lost,

while tidal waves yawn on black horizon,
swallowing all with a smacking crash,
closing in upon her beach this night

until in dark consuming light she sees
tides of stars at her bare feet, collecting
along moondust sand with each lick of waves.

In her graceful aging youth, never to be old,
she smiles — the stars gathered in her palms
chime as diamonds might in a gathered dress

that flows along winds of time — which pauses.
One dainty swirl and scattered again, they fly…
in the distance, a shooting star aims for her heart.

~ Emily C.

 

6.25.17

Still

now my eyes can only see cosmos
when they are closed
visions of eternity design frescos
in spinning stars

behind cloak of sight
comfort in their disarray
I am in control of my night
the only place chaos is calm

to park my mind for a spell
lose myself, willingly
…would it be so bad
if I left this hell?

hell that tries to pass for life
all that is steady evades
mocking my drifting strife
grasping in vain, slipping away


nothing is as it seems
but when eyes
planted shut within a pretty place

are closed so very tight:

I could be still
while
cosmos swirls


~ Emily C.

6.20.17

Lands of Time

Jupiter drifted behind swaying pines
while Ursa Major’s bear lines
told me stories of my past

I let my mind, my love, drift to you

…somewhere there in deep dark blue

while meteors burned a trillion tears
in the fragile firmament
on this moonless night

— luna stolen when you died,

so all stars
would be brighter
in your absence:

their gain

our loss…no shame
in this kind of pain
that speaks of the impact

the black hole crater

your superhuman soul left

in shifting lands of time

~ Emily C.

5.23.17

O…Here Flies Her

Very carefully

he stepped on the ladder in a display of unbridled uncertainty

in reach of the divine dangling overhead like a jeweled crown

twinkling truth in morse code (he never did learn)

remaining a mystery that he would never solve

like her

the earthbound fearless lover deathly afraid of heights

who can dream bigger than the sky

but never dares

to fly

…there is always some boulder in the path

he won’t climb

some barrier blocking access

he won’t destroy

despite his strength (that he never has used)

wilting chances eroded by time

fruit of opportunity spoiled on the vine

o…here flies her

within grasp but for one step

one more step

how it must feel to see her so close away

so very away

so near

and her

the one that stands out by trying to blend in

because she can’t 

because

when all the other stars shine, she illuminates

a part of him he can’t see

for as the muted masses only glow

she
illuminates

from distances he wants to tame

one foot, then two

extend the hand,
the chance
taken

~ Emily C.

5.2.17

For All Beauty Is Violent

Some see only black

in the cosmos

I see nothing but stars

communicating

in death throes 

for all beauty is violent

creation / destruction

yin / yang

birth / death

pulse / flatline

yeses / nos

I bide my time

until the cold sleep

I’ll float deep

and so fucking far,

you’ll think I’m a star

you’ll name me yours,

of course, 

never mind my feelings.

make a wish

blow a kiss…?

kiss me goodbye then

for my chain is cut

by my own heart

free, watch me fly

just a lone speck 

of elusive dark energy

forcing 

the expansion

of the universe

 

~ Em C

2.20.17

You Stood There

you stood there in the pouring rain, cupping your hands as if collecting stardust

stopped in my tracks, I swore I saw shooting stars dancing in your palms

not wanting to disturb you, as the world swirled around in chaos, you, a pillar

of calm serenity, your gaze upward and unfazed, soaking to the bone, smiling,

time stopped — my eyes took a picture and framed you with gilded memory

to be retrieved some future rainy day when the only thing felt is gloom

your inner light captured amidst pelting spheres, tears dropped from the sky

reflecting only the truth of your beauty, magnifying the darkness

in such a way, even it

had to smile

~ EC

1.17.17